I seem to have lost it. I must have left it somewhere...
I keep trying to remember when it mysteriously disappeared but I am unable to pin point it. I have considered a few times that it may have occurred. Last Sept. Hurricane Gustva (was it?). Or May, when I was doubting if I was loved or being played. Or a few weeks ago when I found out I was played (if even for a small moment). I am unable to pin point so I conclude that they all were contributing factors in turning my soul light gray.
Describing my feelings in colors is an old habit of mine. Those who know me well know this about me. So, I asked about color. I asked a friend to give me color. They didn't. I am slowly realizing that I shall not depend on anyone. Just me. And truthfully, I can't even do that anymore.
I decided to put my own color in my life and went out for a walk. I found what I had needed. Deep red.
I am back.