Yesterday was a full day; as today shall be. I woke and rushed about getting the kids out the door. Then I had to pick up Jamie who is doing the plumbing. I dropped him off at my shop and I took off to the hospital to see my mom before her exploratory surgery. The first of god knows how many. As I walked the halls my mind took me back to March when I had surgery. I was very scared. Jonathan was with me and it did give me strength that day. I reached deep inside and thought about what he would say to me if he was here. I would have reached for his hand...
Walking around the curtain I smiled. She was covered to her neck with a flannel sheet. I asked her how she was and if she was cold. She filled up and told me she was doing ok. The topic went to the room temp, I told her how cold I was and cracked a cpl jokes about me wanting the nurses to heat the blankets before they give them to me. Her and my sister burst out laughing and said I musta thought I was in a hotel!!!! lolol. I thought about Jonathan and how he wants to live in a hotel. LOL.
We all sat there and didn't say much after that. We talked of how she would pay for living in St. John's. Idk. I have to help her. I will. They came to roll her to the OR and we went with her. She talked to the dr who put her to sleep and off she went. We went in the other direction...
I took my sister to lunch and then went back to the shop. Only one was allowed to stay after she came out. I got the call that she was out and doing fine about 2. *sigh*
I remember in February thinking, " this is going to be a year of change for me". I had no idea back then I would go through so much emotion in such a short time period. I realize I am alot of woman with a lot of emotion but it is time for it to slow down a bit. I don't think it has even come close to that. *sigh*
I sit here and think...the kids, mom, the house, the shop, the bills, the van, the yard, Corinna's wedding...the list goes on. I know I can handle it, I just have to stay positive. It isn't easy when you hit a brick wall every time you turn around. I am getting sore...I wonder will I heal from the beating?
